Thoughts and Texts

I'm one person who believes that the only way someone can hurt me is because I allowed him to. That the only person I can control is myself. shit happens but what makes the difference is my attitude towards the shit. Whatever I choose to do, someone will get hurt. Either I do or i don't, I will hurt myself or someone. But I also believe that hurt, like all feelings, is fleeting. That there are no right and wrong decisions. It's about making a decision and making it right.

Texted in between sleep the whole day. i came home like 4:30 or 5 am already. no one was home except my dog. which reminds me, i have to save for her revaccinations.

i am "naturally fierce" when I am not depressed. I don't like it when people avoid questions or if someone beats around the bush. get to the point. time is too precious to waste. while i do believe "it's the journey, not the destination," the reverse can also apply. it's either you do, or you do not.

i know i can trust too much and believe too much specially in the goodness of people. i am by nature, a loner so i strive to open up but since it's not natural for me, i can overdo it and let people into my life that easily and eventually, i can even be accused of setting myself up for shit (if it happens). pardon the shits. i am using shit to replace "awful things, awful people, traumatic incidents, etc." it's easier to use.

do i need a drink? i cant tell yet. i was so frustrated last night i finished a bottle of red wine by myself. but the best part is, i didn't have to pay for it hahaha

i might as well get ready to go to Girly's birthday.