Why Does It Always Have To Be

"Love is not something that will begin and end in a moment. Like a spark. It's just something we go on to create together."

This line was from Taereung National Village, a Koreanovela my brother bought. He chose it in light of the Beijing Olympics. It's actually short. Just 8 episodes, a far cry from the others we have seen (or in my case started but didn't finish). So short that we finished it in one go. We took turns reading the subtitles (he'd check on his RPG; I'd go to the toilet and pee) . And yes, it made me cry. boohoo. Well, as I may have established before, I'm making up for the lack of tears I've shed when I was younger. And the video here was one of the songs in the series that hit me hard. Sort of made me remember a few months back (April to June).

Cry now, smile later.

pyane--the first Korean word I learned. And it means sorry and all the sh*t and pain that go with it, and all the hope and faith, too. I first learned it with My Sassy Girl, the first Korean film I've ever watched, which I believe I have seen 11 times already. From that time on, I sort of became a fan of their films so I got to see Il Mare and knew what it was before someone thought of doing a Hollywood version which we now know as the Lake House.

I stopped about two years ago when I discovered what MU meant or rather who MU was. This not only broke my heart but also banned anything with "almond-shaped eyes" infront of my BIG, BROWN and SAD eyes.

I know that you don't like that I always, always want to know if you're okay, if work sucks, if you're tired. I know it irritates you. Nakakasakal, I know. But I remember you more than the times I let you know. You used to be the same. But I don't want to stop myself just because I'm afraid masakal ka. I can't lose you because I already did. I won't apologize because I still don't think it's wrong to let people know as much as you can that you think about them. I also know that no matter what I do, or I don't do, they all don't count. If love is a game, and the rules say "don't make yourself always available for someone you love," I'd rather not play.