6.8.10
1:22 PM
Why do you say such things to me? Do they mean anything other than what is safe in the measure of friendship? Why suggest how to sit my date when you are sitting across me? Why read my messages and tease me with those three words from your own mouth?
In any case, on this date I got a text message and an email informing me that my shoot schedules were moved. And I literally was jumping, all giddy about it. At the back of my head, I was affirming it was destiny's way of unfolding itself into somehow making me end up where I actually wanted to be. That time, that future, I am hoping to spend with you. But then I got to thinking, does it really matter if we do not spend time then? Because we have met and we have spent some time together today, and isn’t this the point of living? To live life a day at a time, going to bed with a good memory that has hopefully made one more human happier than the day before? But then if you ask me if I had the power to change the details, to actually take steps that will ensure my path leads to you in the future, I would give you a calm "yes," only because I am the kind who would not want to give up on something that I feel is awfully right.
"How much of our lives then is shaped by our choices and decisions? How much of it is shaped by fate?" asks Bente. But if you and I are bound to meet in that future, there are still questions that need to be answered: "to what end? To what purpose?" I certainly hope not for anything that will make me more human by making me feel really lonely after you leave. Or more human by making more confused than I already am.
In any case, on this date I got a text message and an email informing me that my shoot schedules were moved. And I literally was jumping, all giddy about it. At the back of my head, I was affirming it was destiny's way of unfolding itself into somehow making me end up where I actually wanted to be. That time, that future, I am hoping to spend with you. But then I got to thinking, does it really matter if we do not spend time then? Because we have met and we have spent some time together today, and isn’t this the point of living? To live life a day at a time, going to bed with a good memory that has hopefully made one more human happier than the day before? But then if you ask me if I had the power to change the details, to actually take steps that will ensure my path leads to you in the future, I would give you a calm "yes," only because I am the kind who would not want to give up on something that I feel is awfully right.
"How much of our lives then is shaped by our choices and decisions? How much of it is shaped by fate?" asks Bente. But if you and I are bound to meet in that future, there are still questions that need to be answered: "to what end? To what purpose?" I certainly hope not for anything that will make me more human by making me feel really lonely after you leave. Or more human by making more confused than I already am.
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