9 hardest times of your life
- admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right
- realizing that you have been tricked after you have given your whole trust
- trying to understand when you just cannot
- accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be
- debating with yourself
- parting and letting go of someone you love
- trying to forget something you know you never will
- pretending to be innocent of what you know about
- being questioned when you yourself do not understand
- admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right
- realizing that you have been tricked after you have given your whole trust
- trying to understand when you just cannot
- accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be
- debating with yourself
- parting and letting go of someone you love
- trying to forget something you know you never will
- pretending to be innocent of what you know about
- being questioned when you yourself do not understand
i have been meaning to write about a lot of things...mostly of how crazy things have been. of how most things suck right now...of how i wish people would be more forgiving or be more mindful or be more consistent...of how i hope injustice in all forms be eradicated...lots of stuff. but tonight i heard news from my orgmate that his current officemate and one of our orgmates (who is older than me but would call me "Ate" and who i know as a very jolly person)is dead. they found him dead in his home where he lives alone. they went there because he wasn't answering texts and calls since sunday.
this has put all the things i think about at a stop. death is always something that reminds me that there can be no tomorrow, or later. it is just now. here. that time is important and to whom and what we dedicate our time should be to whom and what we really want to spend time with and on.
there is no such thing as being too busy or being too stressed. we make time... we should make time for people we care about, for causes we believe in.
i really would love to write a longer piece but i have to go. i have to re-write parts of a feature.
but i'd like you to know, specially if you know who i am, that i am thankful i have met you. i may care about you. i may have loved you for a time. or i may still love you especially if you are bente, wab, ho and pol =) i may have met you while in school, at the office or through friends but i know that you have made an impact in my life that is why you know this blog even exists.
again, thank you... and carpe diem!
this has put all the things i think about at a stop. death is always something that reminds me that there can be no tomorrow, or later. it is just now. here. that time is important and to whom and what we dedicate our time should be to whom and what we really want to spend time with and on.
there is no such thing as being too busy or being too stressed. we make time... we should make time for people we care about, for causes we believe in.
i really would love to write a longer piece but i have to go. i have to re-write parts of a feature.
but i'd like you to know, specially if you know who i am, that i am thankful i have met you. i may care about you. i may have loved you for a time. or i may still love you especially if you are bente, wab, ho and pol =) i may have met you while in school, at the office or through friends but i know that you have made an impact in my life that is why you know this blog even exists.
again, thank you... and carpe diem!
"racing against time, trying to beat the odds, while trying to keep a sense of dignity drive me crazy..." My friend Bente agrees with me on this. We talked about this yesterday. Last night, while I was walking Ayala Ave. from Paseo Center (where LC and I ate at Persia Grill), I saved this in my phone's draft messages. I only got to send this today.
Anyway...
I went to a Deepawali "Diwali" Festival at Swagat Indian Cuisine with a friend. The meal was divine! I particularly liked the Murgh Badami (tender chicken cooked with almonds and spices) I rolled in warm roti. And the dessert, Gulab Jamon, was simple gorgeous. Of course you would understand that these were cheeseballs dipped in syrup. I love cheese.
Diwali starts tomorrow, November 8. It is said to be a festival that marks the victory of good over evil, the homecoming of goodwill and faith after an absence, as suggested by the story of Ramayana. I am sounding too geeky.
Visit Swagat at FCC Building, Rada St., Legaspi Village, Makati City.
Anyway...
I went to a Deepawali "Diwali" Festival at Swagat Indian Cuisine with a friend. The meal was divine! I particularly liked the Murgh Badami (tender chicken cooked with almonds and spices) I rolled in warm roti. And the dessert, Gulab Jamon, was simple gorgeous. Of course you would understand that these were cheeseballs dipped in syrup. I love cheese.
Diwali starts tomorrow, November 8. It is said to be a festival that marks the victory of good over evil, the homecoming of goodwill and faith after an absence, as suggested by the story of Ramayana. I am sounding too geeky.
Visit Swagat at FCC Building, Rada St., Legaspi Village, Makati City.
I started blogging because of someone who would call me "this blog's name" and who I would like to believe, looks out for me and finds that being a teenyweeny bit crazy occasionally is "one of the nice parts of me." I loved the last email so i am sharing it :
Thanks for the blog address. Will have a look at it again. You should really finish your thesis - will only say it once cos I know it will annoy you!
You are right about falling in love - and with you it is crazy, but wonderful ;)
Am not having any fun at the moment. Had a really hard time the last few months in Malawi and am just doing nothing to recover - sleeping, reading etc - nothing very active. But I will need to start getting a social life in DC or I will just become another faceless, lifeless international bureaucrat. Yuck!!
ciao
If you ever do visit this blog as you said you will, i am glad we met. and that we are still in touch. I may not finish my thesis but I will always participate in planning/developmental work in any way possible. I may not have the credentials to ever work for you but I will find time to read your book (if only I can find a copy). God bless you and the good work you do. ciou (how people from southern Italy would spell ciao, right?) And while you do, have fun. Life is short :)
Thanks for the blog address. Will have a look at it again. You should really finish your thesis - will only say it once cos I know it will annoy you!
You are right about falling in love - and with you it is crazy, but wonderful ;)
Am not having any fun at the moment. Had a really hard time the last few months in Malawi and am just doing nothing to recover - sleeping, reading etc - nothing very active. But I will need to start getting a social life in DC or I will just become another faceless, lifeless international bureaucrat. Yuck!!
ciao
If you ever do visit this blog as you said you will, i am glad we met. and that we are still in touch. I may not finish my thesis but I will always participate in planning/developmental work in any way possible. I may not have the credentials to ever work for you but I will find time to read your book (if only I can find a copy). God bless you and the good work you do. ciou (how people from southern Italy would spell ciao, right?) And while you do, have fun. Life is short :)
