Tuesdays with Mourning

This is written the morning after another drunken night. Yes, I have been drinking for two nights straight. It's a guy thing, I know. But what else is there? I don't do drugs and certainly won't try them. maybe valium?

It's really sad trying to keep a straight face amidst the chaos going through inside me. I wish I knew what this pain is for. May be I just have to believe that somewhere, someone is being molded using the same plates (aaargh!). I wish i can keep this up for the next couple of weeks. or that i would still believe.

can i have more beer please?