10 Hs

(After several weeks i finally finished this!)

I visited my "mommy amy's" blog and i did ask for this. She gave me "H" to write about. I have to think of 10 words that start with this letter and write what each word means to me.

"The Instructions: Comment, and I shall give you a letter. Go back to your journal, and write ten words beginning with that letter, including an explanation of what those words means to you and why."

1. HEAD. I have always claimed to be a "head" person, one who believes that it it should always be above the heart. I probably didn't follow my own advise that's why I got a broken heart.
2. HEART. This is my heart and it's broken. Can you feel it? I haven't seen the Dead Man's Chest but from what I gather, this certain character fell in love and had to keep his heart in this chest to keep him from feeling the pain. If I can do the same I would. It's difficult to function when your heart hurts like hell and you don't want the world to know about it because you believe there are other people in worse situations than you (like people in Zimbabwe, the country ranked as the least happy). But then again it's my heart and it's broken.
3. HAPPINESS. It is a feeling that comes with the right attitude towards situations.
4. HEARTBREAK. As a kid, I would always choose to be punished physically like kneeling on rock salt facing the wall or something over hearing curses or damnation to a life i do not like. So yes, I'm not a big fan of emotional suffering. And yes, I was not spared from heartbreaks. My heart broke as I was looking at and waving goodbye to our first pet dog being led away by this guy with his head low (he probably knew we were never going to see each other). My heart broke when my mom went to Australia to work and I was left figuring out how to be the ate/mom/dad (which probably started my slasher career). My heart broke every time I saw my parents fight back then. My heart broke when my lola died. And my heart broke (really bad. into smitherins) and breaks everytime I think about unfulfilled promises and not being with this person I truly, truly like.
5. HEARTACHE. My vocabulary suddenly became so limited. So okay. This word is pain with a capital P. And if every one who has ever gone through this or has heard of what it does to persons with low EQ will think a million times before doing something that will cause a fellow human being to experience the same, then the world would be a better place to live in.
6. HELP. No one is too rich, too anything, not to need any help from anybody. I need help.
7. HOLIDAY. Sometimes, holidays need "surviving." I've been through holidays where I was surrounded by many people but felt really lonely. Or sometimes, the preparation stresses everyone that holidays turn into a bunch of chores.
8. HOME. I work in a home and lifestyle magazine. I know that home-making, literally and figuratively, is not easy.
9. HEALTHY. I try to live healthy, in my own standards :) I don't eat breakfast but I drink coffee. I am exposed to secondhand smoking and Manila's air pollution but I don't smoke (although I know how to). I try to take care of my heart so I drink beer :) I want to live long enough and healthy enough to tend a garden when I'm already a grandparent.
10.HEAVEN. Is where I want to end up so I try to be "good" even if being nice/good is not always easy. I know I can be mataray but I am not wicked. I am very forgiving. My anger is good for two minutes (which sucks by the way because I can't hate people I know I have to hate). So there....