The most interesting thing about heart transplants is that one completely loses his own heart & be replaced with someone else's yet still has the feelings for the same person he loves. This proves that love works in the minds of people & not in their hearts. Bottom line is, love is a state of mind. You'll learn how to forget only if you try doing so." --- Dr. Burke, Grey's Anatomy

Very relatable. Taking a quick break from churning articles. It's our deadline today. I am starting early. As if i care enough not to be late. Maybe I do. Pride does this to me.

nanood ako ng 300. my gaaash! Nation of beautiful people. It was my first time to actually watch battle scenes na ang napapansin ko ay yung mga flexing muscles. Minsan pa ay may kasamang kilig Hahaha It was weird. I couldn't concentrate on the gore :P

Just came from a desolate island. had a nice time. "took one for the team" and for "RP and Australian relations," and "visiting for-ces agreement." However the pinoys and a pinay at the bar will last night will call it. Aliw na medyo ilang pero keri lang. Buti na lang, marunong akong uminom. Thanks for the concern kung may hangover ako. Sorry to disappoint but I didn't have one. Ano na kaya nangyayari doon ngayon? Masaya pa kaya yung bar? Sobrang ingay na may nagreklamo na guests.

In less than two days, i felt how ironic life is . And that history will try to repeat itself. I hope that things will be different now. got to go.

I am depressed kasi:
1. I am really tired. or more appropriately uninspired of going to the office.
2. I hurt the feelings of someone really dear to me who is one of the very few reasons i am still working where i am working.
3. I dislike the fact that I am 27 and have pimples on my face. Ugh! And this..mmm....person *aaaarrrgh!* made me feel bad about these zits. As if my being charming depended on them. hah!
4. I want an SOJ! I am so sad i am considering young boys which is quite funny
5. I feel old enough for things i want to do/be but can't do/be because the other parts of the equation are not in place.
6. I will not be able to present our Muntinlupa Shelter Plan on the 23rd because i will be on a desolate island reading on "Why Men NeverRemember and Women Never Forget."

But I am thankful because:
1. because i will be on a desolate island reading on "Why Men NeverRemember and Women Never Forget."
2. I am still open to giving working "there" a shot. I actually filed a leave para ma-miss ko ang office. Talaga namang mataas ang tolerance ko for shitty things.
3. I went to Baclaran tuesday night/wed early am with Janis and her Tita and her Tita's aleli (a new term i got from her). It was a nice experience.
4. We are doing a makeover for tv again! And this time, sana mas mura since this is our second time.
5. Oh and because I went to Palau and got to try the clay at Milky Way (which was rubbed all over be, without warning, by a Palauan called " Jheheysn". syempre deadma na lang kasi ginawa niya din naman sa ibang naunang umahon e) and got to swim with stingless jellyfish (this was the HIGHLIGHT for me..lovely, freaks of nature).
6. I went to a meeting with former dorm mates (freshmen freshmen) and had a blast. I found another circle, or more appropriately, rediscovered. And i drank 6 bottles of beer and not felt tipsy after.

I am... excited! because I am going to learn to drive this year! By hook or by borrowing my brother's key while he sleeps, I am going to learn!

I am...better.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel unsure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

--Marianne Williamson

They say it's good. some say it's a nation of yum ;p in any case...

Bought dog food before going to the office. Ang mahal pero okay na din lang kasi mahal ko naman si Lala e. Pero next time na lang ulit si Low Fat Adult Dog food kasi doble siya. mabigat sa bulsa. Bumili din ako ng dollar pampalit sa pinahiram sa akin ni Sangoku kaso nakalimutan ko din ibigay. Hassle kasi mahal pa naman ang bumili sa banko. Sana naghintay na lang ako sa Monday kay Ate A. Haaay.

Chatted with this person who now is known as Huny or something to that effect. Kulit niya ha. Simpleng tanong ayaw sagutin. Parang ayaw niyang dumali ang buhay pag-ibig ko.

went to eastwood after work. varied crowd tonight but young meat still abound. these girls are like just high school and they're like...so not gen X. I remember that during those days, being a gen Xer was taboo. times change so fast. skirts are hiking up faster than we age.

ganda mood ni brother sinundo ako sa eastwood. ayaw ko na sumabay pauwi kay "Marvin Gay" e. pauwi na kami when his wheel's lock won't budge with the turn of the key. it got stuck. hassle. pero we made it through. buti na lang, malakas siya. Dasal ever ako kasi ayaw ko naman mag-stay sa parking di ba? Ayun sa awa ng Diyos, naputol niya isang portion. ibig sabihin hindi siya ganun ka-effective kasi pati yung may-ari, na-prevent i-drive 'yung sasakyan. at naputol siya. bago kayo bumili ng lock, i-consult niyo muna ko ha?

Gusto ko ding sumama sa Singapore kina Josa.

I will try to blog everyday. it's not gonna be substantial but i hope i get into the habit of writing random pieces. Ayoko na ng masaydong structured. Yung masaydong pinag-isipan.

I met a "new" writer today. Pinapili niya ako ng ampaw. On impulse, I wanted to go for the one with a tied ribbon. But i deliberated with myself to just get the one with the untied bow (inisip ko kawawa naman siya, sira na nga siya, hindi ko pa siya pipiliin. lonely na siyang sobra). I was told, I chose career over love. Shucks. So see, it is a conscious effort, not going into a relationship. Pero gusto ko na din ng Ortigas romance. I want a SOJ for real ;p

So anyway, i also got an exotic massage. Saraaaap! The type that has no malice attached. Mahirap na kahit sa likod lang. You never can tell (until after several years pag umamin na. Hahahaha!) But if i keep having these massages to ease my body pains, I will have to give up drinking. Hmmm Afterwards, ate at this Bombay resto beside it. The first time i ate there was 2005.

Blue, as how Bani will call him, texted me again today. Sobra naman talaga itong batang ito. Kung matangkad lang siya, mayaman, at hot, wala ng isip-isip tutal mukhang gusto niya talaga ako. Either that or he's just checking if dreams do come true. Hahahaha Oh well. The only way is if he wins several millions sa lotto. Love is good but right now, i need cash.
And who wants love when it is easily dismissed as "not love" pala. Duh. Buti pa ang pera, consistent and definite.